Disruption of a "Room of my Own"

This vacation has been a complete wash, which I should have figured when it comes to being with my family.  The only positive moments I have had were the ones when I was alone with my own thoughts.  If it wasn't for those brief moments to myself, I think I would have lost my mind the second day of this vacation.

There is so much that I wish to blog about, but unfortunately I am experiencing the inability to write or express myself because I do not have a room of my own. :)  I have not had a single moment to myself since we arrived here last Friday.  I am always surrounded by someone and as a result, I cannot reflect on my own thoughts and get them down into physical words.  There is always someone talking (even if it's just talking to themselves like my mom and sister do) so I try and focus by listening to music on the headphones.  Unfortunately that does not help because they often talk to me anyway while I am listening to my music and get pissed when I don't respond to them.  All in all, I have no privacy and no time to reflect on my own thoughts without being interrupted or distracted.

I have learned through these couple of days about how important having a "room of my own" or at least some private time is so important to me and my ability to express myself.  I am having such a difficult time on this vacation because I have lost my own time and privacy.  I can't imagine being trapped with my family in a small space for longer than this week.  But there are so many out there that do this on a daily basis for their entire lives.  Knowing my personality and my attitudes toward my family, I am so blessed to have this invasion of privacy and lack of creativity be only temporary.  I can only imagine if someone tried to make me do this for longer than this week.  I would rather die.

This whole vacation has been terrible and I cannot wait until it is over.  But I am glad that I have learned a lot more about myself through this (and at least pulled something good out of all this mess).  I have learned that I am no longer the child my parents cared for, that I am completely ready to be off on my own and start a new chapter in my life sans family, that I need a "room of my own"and finally, that family vacations are now a very bad idea. :)