"Choosing Not to Keep the Baby"

I was watching my Twitter feed update earlier today and came across this interesting article from a section of the NY Times that I never pay attention to.  As an adopted adult and current manager of an adoptee Twitter feed and website (both need updating soon!), I saw this title as a potential one to share for a good debate.  Little did I know, that it would strike a harder chord than I thought.

Everyone can check out the article here.  The rest of the blog post will be about my own personal thoughts regarding it, so read the article and come back if you're interested.

As a woman, I believe that all women should be strictly pro-choice.  I am an avid supporter of the woman's right to choose and believe that women, in regards to anything sexual or pregnancy-wise, have the final say.  When men start carrying around a kid for nine months, I will change my opinion but for now that remains solidified.

So as you can guess from the article, I do support Emmie's right to choose to have an abortion.  However, I found myself feeling upset at her decision to do so.  She is in my exact position right now; a 22 year old woman starting graduate school for something she loves.  I have told myself numerous times that if I was to get pregnant around this time that I would have no other choice but to abort the child, even with the solid and stable relationship that I have now (which Emmie does not have).  There are just too many variables and I would not be a good mother, nor my fiance a good father.  No matter what would happen, that child would not stay with us.

In my mind it was completely unreasonable to give the child up for adoption, not because of the same reasons that Emmie discusses, but because I know.  I know exactly what it is like to be in that situation and I wouldn't wish this willingly upon anyone else.  How could I look my own flesh and blood in the face if they happened to find me and then have them find out that I was adopted too.  To know exactly what they are going through and then send them away just the same.  But I digress..a little bit.

While I support and am glad that Emmie had the choice for what she wanted to do with her child, I cannot seem to agree with her decision.  Her reasoning and logic seem off-center to me.  How can you say that you won't give the child up for adoption because you love them so much, but then talk about your selfish desires for your life and then abort the kid for that reason?  She seems to say that she deeply loves her child, but then suddenly turns around and says she needs to be selfish in life so it justifies the abortion.

When thinking about this it comes down to one thing or another; do you want your child to have the good life, or do you want the good life for yourself?  Emmie seems to think that she now has the best of both worlds and that the child is just as happy as well.  I can't tolerate a woman who thinks that abortion or adoption will be good for both parties, both options are just as bad!  Abortion is the easy way out, it's the immature and selfish thing to do.  Adoption is a much more difficult path and requires maturity, responsibility and strength.  Granted, not all abortions or adoptions are like this but in Emmie's case it is.

I am so frustrated by mother's opinions that "Oh, adoption would be too difficult for me so I don't think that I could do it." The problem is, adoption isn't about you.  Adoption is solely about your child and the new future it will be given.  For some women in this situation, it is very difficult for them to get beyond their own feelings and thoughts (even normal pregnant women are impossible to tolerate because of this).  And that is the only reason why adoption is not a "realistic" option for them.

I say this world needs to get over its whole "blood-line" and "but I want to have my own baby" bullcrap.  A family is subject to interpretation and just because you may or may not be biologically related to the person should have nothing to do with your relationship to them.  How on earth can we justify marrying someone outside your family and not accepting a child from another person?  If anything, the young child should be more readily accepted into a household than a complete adult stranger.  Think about it.

But this has so much to do with societal standards, patriarchy, class systems, race and everything else that makes our world such an ugly place.  Thoughts such as Emmie's and the aforementioned issues are what keep adopted children hidden from society.  We have our own problems and are own issues to deal with that other children do not.  But because of such a negative attitude towards adoption, no one except the ones involved really care at all.

If Emmie was graduate student-worthy, she would have made a different decision.  If she is able to handle the load of a graduate student, then she should have the logic and reasoning to understand that adoption would have been the better choice (but not the best) for both parties.  In this whole situation, both mother and child would be miserable no matter what choice was made.  However, I believe that the child could have had a better life if Emmie had chosen adoption instead of aborting, if that is really what Emmie truly wanted (I don't believe for one minute that she did).

Going back to my decision, this article has proved a great lesson for myself without having to actually be involved (thank god).  By putting myself in her shoes and actually thinking out the decision, I would rather give my child up for adoption than abort it.  I still fully support and am so thankful for the choice to do either, but I think my own personal thoughts would lead me to give the child a life.  Yes, it would tear me up inside and I would be miserable for a long time but I would be comforted that my child did get that good life that I so desperately wanted it to have.  I know it will have difficulty, just like myself, but perhaps that would make me a better birth parent than most.  I would want the child to live a life without me, but if they did come looking for me I would hope that I could help them to better cope with it.

But for now, I can only hope that I never have to come to such a difficult decision.  These are the good life lessons, kiddos!  Read the news more! Ha ha...

Target Women

Last night was on iChat with my very good friend Emily, and we were watching numerous clips from the Current TV's Infomania segment, Target Women.  For anyone interested in women's rights and a feminist view on our current media, these 3-4 minute clips are perfect for you!

I absolutely adore Sarah Haskins.  She's is an excellent comedienne and a very dedicated feminist in a society where we are beginning to see some backlash against feminism.  She deserves so much more recognition for her work and she is a very personal heroine of mine (this is coming from someone who doesn't have many!).

I could go on and on about how wonderful Target Women and Sarah Haskins are, but there are no better words than to actually see a few of my favorite clips!  Unfortunately, Blogger isn't the greatest when it comes to having videos on a blog page.  So please click the links below for my favorite clips and ENJOY!

Target Women: Vampires

Target Women: Chick Flicks

Target Women: Carl's Jr.

Target Women: Wedding Shows

Target Women: Your Garden

These are just a FEW!  Keep searching on YouTube and you will find them all!  Each one is amazing and I am absolutely in love with the segment!  I literally want to have Sarah Haskin's babies, no doubt! ha ha

Single vs. Committed?

Recently I have seemed to encounter a lot of comments regarding which status in life might be better; being single or in a relationship?

On Facebook we can find numerous quizzes about when we will have children, when we will get married, or what engagement ring would be right for us.  People on Facebook also love to announce their relationship status or comment when it isn't going well.  This prompts others to comment regarding their status and what that means for them.  These days, it seems that everyone online has an opinion about being single or being in a relationship.

I was recently reading on the Psychology Today blogs that singlehood is often negatively portrayed in media and in social terms.  Those who have been single for a long time (and are probably older adults) are often thought to be more selfish, uncontrollable and immoral compared to those who are in a committed relationship.  Just watch any episode of Sex and the City and you will realize what I am talking about.

One blogger attempted to address that singles are basically the same, it not better, than those who are in a committed relationship.  She explains how couples go to great lengths for their marriage and often go over-the-top to show the world their couple status.  I know from my own personal experience that you can for sure be immoral and uncontrollable even when you're in a relationship.  Our society is so hinged on monogamous relationships that we excuse those who are in one.

I'm certain that this falls back on to religious and patriarchal ideals of the past.  Women are supposed to be married in order to have children and provide for their husbands.  This is how it has been for years upon years now.  We all know how severe the backlash is against someone who is homosexual or a woman who considers herself feminist, because that goes against traditional view of relationships and how important they are.  Hence, a women (or a man) who is single by the time they are late 20s or early 30s has something the matter with them.  I completely disagree.

Since when did our status and success in life matter if we had a family or significant other?  If men and women are now supposedly given the same opportunities to advance in the workplace, have the same education, and have a choice about their romantic life, then why are we so caught up with marriage and families still?  (I'm sure you understand that women still don't have these opportunities, but many traditionalists would want you to think so).  Why would we push our daughters and sons through expensive college educations and tell them to pursue their goals if all we really want from them is to find a mate and get married as soon as possible?  I'm sure I am not the only one that realizes that we're living in a society with bi-polar expectations here.  Be completely independent but co-dependent on another person, having too much of one or the other is wrong in society's eyes.

The point is, there is nothing wrong with being single nor is there nothing wrong with being in a committed relationship.  However, our society often makes it feel like there is something wrong with one area or another.  People feel they need excuses for why they are in either camp.  Why do we cheer when someone falls in love but become upset when a relationship fails?  Shouldn't we be happy either way because the person is finding out what they want in life?

I believe that some people are better off completely independent, without someone else constantly in their lives.  I also believe that some people enjoy the constant company of another person with whom they are compatible with.  And there is nothing wrong with either one of those preferences.  We are living in 2009, not 1599.  It's time we grow out of this expectation that being in a relationship is more important than anything else in this world.  And it's time that either side just relax and accept the other.  Let us all live our lives with our own expectations, not impacted by outside expectations and without throwing our own expectations upon others as well.

Experiences with Uprooting

I am sorry that I really haven't been updating this very much.  Life always finds a way to, well, get in the way.  I attempted to type up a post a couple of days to a week ago about all of my summer projects, but it ended up boring me so I didn't finish it.  But, I found that I couldn't delete it either because of the fact that I had already spent time writing it out.  I suppose after I post this one I will delete the other one.

I just returned from my first trip to Denver, CO.  I was really nervous about flying out there and checking everything out, because of all that I heard about it.  Everyone who knows the area seems to adore Denver, and I was frightened that my positive view of it would be a let-down and I would be unhappy.

For me, location is everything.  If I am not happy where I am located, then I am going to be miserable the rest of the time I am there.  Perhaps it stems from being rudely uprooted from my home state and being forced to come to a place and culture so different from what I knew.  Perhaps it isn't really a perhaps, but a complete certainty.  Now that I have control in my life, I refuse to be placed somewhere that I don't enjoy.  Location is everything to me, and I will be damned if I don't like where I am located.

This is not to say that I regret moving to Minnesota.  Well, let me rephrase that; I do not regret moving.  The experience that I learned from moving to somewhere so different from what I was used to has changed me in profound ways.  I know so many of my friends and acquaintances that can barely move out of their own hometowns without having great anxiety, let alone move out of state.  I think that they are really missing out on a huge experience.  Without challenging your thoughts on how the world operates and seeing the world through a different culture, how can you possibly grow?  I applaud the students that took the plunge and moved out of state for college, that takes a maturity and a sense of learning and wonder that I wish more people had.  I believe they have learned more about themselves and how to look at the world around them than someone who went to a college close to their homes.

Because of being uprooted from the place and culture that I loved, I feel that I am no longer content with just staying in one place.  When I was given the chance to apply out of state for grad school, I took that and ran with it.  I applied to numerous areas I had never been to before, including Denver.  I knew I needed a change of scenery and I needed to put myself out in the open once again.  I needed to feel vulnerable, scared and self-reliant.  There is a sense of adventure and thrill when you go somewhere you have never been to before.  I seek that desperately now.

I don't know if I will actually stay in Denver for the rest of my life.  I enjoy it enough that I could, but there are still so many places I want to go and experience.  Being uprooted from my home has created this inside of me, and I would only hope that more people would develop this.  Home is where you call it, not where family is or where you originated from.  If you are attached and insanely close to your family, there is nothing wrong with staying near them.  But, I feel that those are the people that need to explore and live somewhere else the most.  Challenging our thoughts and seeing how others live allows us to grow and become mature.  Otherwise we would remain closed-minded people who can only understand our own point of view.  The US is such a diverse place compared to most countries, it's almost a sin to not explore other areas and live somewhere else for a while.

Either way, each person has their own way to live.  But, I would encourage everyone to really focus on getting out of their comfort zones every once and a while.  Do something you would never do, go somewhere you never wanted to go.  The negative feelings are only temporary and the thrill and excitement you experience will really change how you view the world!  I had a very difficult time with moving to Minnesota, but I thirst for those experiences again in my life.  Now that I have taken the plunge with this, I feel that I will never be content just sitting and being in one place ever again.